beyond choosing

i can’t choose between
            life n’ dreams.
in light you strip me of
            my existence.
in the dark i have to hide
            from myself.
i carry the shadow you
            cast on me,
n’ i follow it blind,
knowing we crossed life on
alien borders.
you hide in your corner
                            of barren tears
n’ i can’t even touch you
now that time has buried
                feelings i have for you.